sometime this day 19 yrs ago i was born...
i still remember my early birthdays. all full of fan fare. all the relatives will come my house and celebrate. got food, presents and fun. as time passed, i grew older and less emphasis was placed on celebrating birthdays.
at home, the best was a cake and dinner out at hawker center or coffee shop. in pri sch, no one knew. i guess i wasn't very sociable then. but still i had hopped that someone would wish me happy birthday.
when i went to sec sch, i thought that things would improve since people always say sec sch will be the most fun and got alot of friends one. but sadly sec 1 and 2 were like fuck. much grief and sorrow. then i moved to bedok green. those days were the best of my sec sch life. good friends, teachers and i got my first birthday card from someone other than my relatives. was very happy cos to me it meant that they cared.
now at MI, got no card nor presents for the pass 3 yrs. the best was last yr when all the girls in class spam me with happy birthday smses. this yr also nothing different. got abt 7 greetings from people.
as i mentioned, last time got cake to blow candles on. in the recent yrs the cake become a slice. this yr got no cake at all. not even a slice. got no candles to blow. sad right?
heh. sounds like i'm wallowing in self pity. i can't help but wonder, how many people like me. every yr pass birthday like a normal day? and how many people who celebrate theirs with friends or family at some restaurant with much fanfare and gifts. sounds like a dream. but i'll really like to experience that someday.
on a slightly lighter note, i had my 5th driving lesson today. since i 1 mth nevery drive le, i drove 2 rounds around the circuit to refresh. this car no 187 the clutch is higher that the previous car. so need to release quite abit to let it move. den we went out onto the road.
i tell you man, driving on the road is much better than driving on the circuit. can speed up some more. but also more stress la. got to watch mirrors and manage the gears plus keep in lane. some more ubi there got heavy traffic. den the car stop, move stop move stop lidat very tiring on the left leg. but i think its really fun. to be in control. drove at kaki bukit towards bedok reservoir, den turn into temasek poly.
i still remember my early birthdays. all full of fan fare. all the relatives will come my house and celebrate. got food, presents and fun. as time passed, i grew older and less emphasis was placed on celebrating birthdays.
at home, the best was a cake and dinner out at hawker center or coffee shop. in pri sch, no one knew. i guess i wasn't very sociable then. but still i had hopped that someone would wish me happy birthday.
when i went to sec sch, i thought that things would improve since people always say sec sch will be the most fun and got alot of friends one. but sadly sec 1 and 2 were like fuck. much grief and sorrow. then i moved to bedok green. those days were the best of my sec sch life. good friends, teachers and i got my first birthday card from someone other than my relatives. was very happy cos to me it meant that they cared.
now at MI, got no card nor presents for the pass 3 yrs. the best was last yr when all the girls in class spam me with happy birthday smses. this yr also nothing different. got abt 7 greetings from people.
as i mentioned, last time got cake to blow candles on. in the recent yrs the cake become a slice. this yr got no cake at all. not even a slice. got no candles to blow. sad right?
heh. sounds like i'm wallowing in self pity. i can't help but wonder, how many people like me. every yr pass birthday like a normal day? and how many people who celebrate theirs with friends or family at some restaurant with much fanfare and gifts. sounds like a dream. but i'll really like to experience that someday.
on a slightly lighter note, i had my 5th driving lesson today. since i 1 mth nevery drive le, i drove 2 rounds around the circuit to refresh. this car no 187 the clutch is higher that the previous car. so need to release quite abit to let it move. den we went out onto the road.
i tell you man, driving on the road is much better than driving on the circuit. can speed up some more. but also more stress la. got to watch mirrors and manage the gears plus keep in lane. some more ubi there got heavy traffic. den the car stop, move stop move stop lidat very tiring on the left leg. but i think its really fun. to be in control. drove at kaki bukit towards bedok reservoir, den turn into temasek poly.
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